ThatSpecialDay..

Alhamdulillah..

segala puji bagi allah,

diatas limpah kurnia Nya..

di atas kebesaran Nya..

melimpahkan rezeki yang berpanjangan..

semoga berterusan kurniaan ini.. amin..

 Those days were gone whn everything seems so difficult.. everything seems so complicated..and i praise Allah SWT for given me the strength to stay focused.. to stay calmed.. Million Thanks to those around me who trusting me.. believing me.. never ending supports..i feel blessed!! Feels like surrounded by angels!!..To all my families and close friends, U GUYZ R THE BEST!!!!!

Berpegang pada janji.. insya allah kita pasti diberkati.. diamati kata2 ini ada benarnya.. Andai janji tinggal janji pasti hidup ada musibahnya.. Ive learned from my own experience that broken promises are betrayal.. but some people never learn from it..ker memang dah perangai tu tak boleh diubah?? Atau,tak pernah ada kesedaran dalam diri..

Just yesterday i had bridal makeup outside KL area..i was not booked by the bride herself.. it was the fella who prepare her wedding dress who called me and booked me for the job(dia ni pulak memang terkenal ngan perangai suka aniaya pengantin).. As for me its just another bridal makeup.. but as for the bride it was her ONE IN A LIFETIME SPECIAL DAY.. Nobody have the rights to take it away from her..

From the beginning i already felt that something is gonna happen.. it was 3pm when i arrived and all the preparation were still not yet done..the decorations still half way..also, the pelamin still in "something wrong somewhere" condition.. (ni boleh membawa bencana ni ,lepas maghrib dah kene start majlis!!!!).. After asar when i was preparing my makeup tools, the bride inform me that she havent got the chance to see wht her dress look like.. and its already 4:45pm!! it took me by surprise.. but my job have to be done.. i start and just ignoring the unconfortable feelings that i was having that time..(kalau dah dia buat hal.. aku ni akan terkena sama la!!!)

6pm during the last fake lashes glued to her eyes when her wedding dress arrived...everyone relieved.. atleast she have something to wear for her big night.. the person who  incharge of her wedding is the same person who prepared her dress.. he was not there...(x pe yg penting baju dah sampai) i asked her to try on that dress while i go out to take a break and smoke..

I was about to throw the cigarettes butt when i heard angry voice came from the brides room..GOSH .. i hope its not about my makeup..luckily its not!! its about the dress..poor her.. obviously she didnt like it and it doesnt look like she wanted.. she was damn upset about it.. i cant describe wht the dress look like.. but i can tell that its terrible!! she called that person.. and wht surprise me that he can only say " If u tak puas hati.. i cant do anything about it"...yg menambah bencana bila pelamin yg di jadualkan siap, masih tak siap2 lagi..tetamu dah start datang.. pelamin masih belum siap di hias.. malah kerusi2 untuk jemputan pun belum ready.. tetiba je terasa bahang2 yg aku akan teraniaya sama.....(nasib baik awal2 lagi aku dah kata kat pengantin ni aku ni freelance.. )

Berat mata memandang berat lagi bahu yg memikul.. tak mampu nak meletakkan myself in her situation.. sedikit senbanyak aku faham.. nak di kesiankan , benda dah berlaku.. lagi pun sedikit sebanyak dua2 belah pihak ada silapnya.. Nak di jadikan cerita ni bukan pertama kali kejadian ini berlaku.. khabarnya org yg sama pernah "buat hal" dlm perkhawinan adik pengantin lelaki.. Persoalannya.. kenapa percayakan dia lagi???? kan sekarang dah terkena lagi sekali..nasib baik jugak baju tu muat.. cuma poorly made la.. Yg org tu pun sama.. dah selalu sgt buat hal2 mcm ni..never learn ka??? bukan nyer bende free yg org minta.. semua pun ada bayarannya.. dah janji lain, lain pula yg dibuat...  mana perginya sikap profesional yg dok di canang2kan kat semua org.. ?? End up aku jugak yg kene betulkan makeup selepas pengantin tu puas menangis.. keje aku yg senang dah jadi susah!!

Bersanding jugak pengantin tu akhirnya(lewat 1 setengah jam!!!!!).. dgn keadaan pelamin yg baru siap.. lighting yg kucar kacir.. pastinya perasaan gemibira dihari persandingan tu sudah terjejas.. sebelum aku menjadi maangsa, aku pun balik.. biarkan org tu menyelesaikan masalahnya dengan pengantin tu(batang hidungnya pun tdk kelihatan lagi time tu).. Yg penting kerja yg di amanahkan sudah aku selesaikan dgn jayanya ..thank god she love my makeup on her!!! ...alhamdulillah....

Manusia ni.. kadang2 apa yg keluar dimulut.. tak sama ngn apa yg ada dibuat.. kalau ada ramai org macam ni mmg susah la nak hidup.. nasib baik segelintir ajer.. Moga2, satu hari nanti dia sedar...minta2 aku dijauhi dari org2 yg begini.. insya allah....

Lelaki dah MAKEUP???

This is all about real men who needs makeup for the sake of their career..

MODELS

Models.. tak kira la pompuan atau lelaki mmg sinonim dgn alat2 kosmetik/makeup. Disetiap penampilan mereka bukan sekadar penampilan biasa tapi luar biasa. Impak makeup kpd mereka sememangnya membantu mereka untuk kelihatan "luar biasa" lain dari penampilan biasa mereka. tapi awas! kalau penampilan biasa pun nak makeup2, tu dah cerita lain..huhu

AKTOR

Dah sememangnya mereka perlu di makeupkan.. filem,TV,photo, mereka ni mesti bermakeup. Percaya atau tidak memang ada yg sudah memiliki "personal makeup kit" sendiri. Bukan untuk suka2 tapi kemestian, terutamanya apabila kemunculan mereka di kaca TV/cinema atau majalah/newspaper. kalau tak, aperkah rupanya diorang ni huhuhu..

CELEBRITIES

Golongan ini pula merangkumi semua yg terkenal.. tak kiralah ahli sukan ..ahli politik.. ahli perniagaan.. sapa2 jer lah yg di labelkan dalam kategori ni mesti mempunyai pengalaman di makeupkan.. Bukan untuk suka2.. tapi untuk setiap photoshoot/iklan yg melibatkan mereka.. Nak atau tak.. terpaksa la redha.. hehehehe jgn OVER sudah..


PENGANTIN

kategori ni pulak..hurm... nak tergelak pun ada.. bukan nyer apa.. takla semestinya diorg ni di makeupkan.. tapi tetap ada request untuk di "touch-up" sebelum naik pelamin.. ada plak kes2 aniaya yg menyebabkan warna muka menjadi kelabu berbanding leher..sepanjang penglibatan aku tak ader lagi la yg " tekelabu" hahhah setakat layang2 kan powder yg sama tone color ngan muka ajer dah la..

Kesimpulannya, lelaki dah makeup tak akan menjadi pelik apabila kena dgn keadaan dan situasi.. yg berlagak2 maskulin di zaman dulu tapi bila dah di takdirkan tergolong dalam kategori2 di atas tepaksa la menerima ngn redha.. hahahah especially kalau dah muka menjadi kelabu asap.. Tapi yg tetiba nak makeup2 walaupun x sepatutnya tu, lu pikir la sendiri.. huhuhuh

Sari oh Sari

This is not about SARI(SAREE) the Indian Traditional wear.. Its simply about the beautiful and talented Sari Yanti, one of my favourite Malaysian star..

How can i NOT adore that sweet face, beautiful big eyes.. with black long healthy hair of her.. Other than that she have this cute lil way of talking that makes u wanna listen to everything that she says!

Last Ramadhan i got the chance to do her makeup for one of the local newspaper. She and the other 2 actresses are going to have a photoshoot at PAVILION Bukit Bintang for the coming Eid Mubarak. I cant help saying to her " gurl u r simply gorgeous"(oh well of course she knew it already!! silly me!!). She is naturally beautiful! she came to me without any makeup on her face and those stunning eyes of her looked so beautiful with or without makeup.

That was not the first time i did her makeup.But that was the first time she choose me personally. I feel GREAT!! here r some of the pictures of her that published by that newspaper..

Yatt,Darling and Sari Yanti

Gorgeous yes??

Tercipta UntukKu..

What does my birth month mean..

February:

Abstract thoughts
-Yes i am..

Loves reality and abstract
- Everyone loves reality..im one of them. Abstract?? erm.. not really sure of it..but mylife r pretty much abstract already..

Intelligent and clever
-i considered myself as an intelligent person..fast learner morelikely.. but im not clever in some part of mylife...oh well.. im experimenting..learning..but i dont like risk!!

Changing personality
-how can i apply this into myself? maybe other people can see it from me.. just let them to be the judge of it.

Temperamental
-Oh yes.. i am VERY much this..and 100% agree..

Quiet, shy and humble
-i can be quiet at the beginning.. pretty much shy also.. but when im adjusted, i can be talkative.. but above all i considered myself as humble.

Low self esteem
-im struggling with this for long long long time...and slowly i overcome it...im feeling good now..still some part of myself very disturbing!

Honest and loyal
- im not everytime honest, but im trying so hard... and loyalty are not really my best attributes. i have to admit that..but so far i haven't caused any trouble..

Determined to reach goals
-i had goals..and i havent reach any of it even another set of goals are coming... huhuhu..im just following the flow.. pretty much easy going..

Loves freedom
-Everyone loves freedom..i cant remember knowing anyone who didn't like freedom!!!

Rebellious when restricted
-yes this is very much true..i regret some of it.. but most of it are simply a BLAST!!

Loves aggressiveness
-oh i also loves gentleness

Too sensitive and easily hurt
-this is depends on which issue..whatever it is will use my brain to comeout with a possitive explaination..

Showing anger easily
-oh yes.. thats very ME

Dislike unnecessary things
- Very Me again

Loves making friends but rarely shows it
- yeah i am agree..let them show it..

Daring and stubborn
-hurm.. i was darring... but i don't think this applies to my current age.. hahaha! Stubborn.. im more settle down these days.

Ambitious
-Im always am!

Realizing dreams and hopes
-not yet so far..I am working on it...harder everyday.

Sharp
-am i ?? not sure..

Loves entertainment and leisure
-yes i do.. and it causes me lots of problem!! oh how i wish i dont have to workhard for everything!! THATS IMPOSSIBLE YES??

Romantic on the inside not outside
-yes i am..only those who understand me know this..but sadly most of them were not..

Superstitious and ludicrous
-i dont think so.. and im not gonna start now!!

Spendthrift
-Ouch!! thats just hit me on the face big time!!!

Learns to show emotions
-thank good this is true...............

Imperfect Angel..

Ni bukan nyer nak review lagu2 Mariah Carey dlm album Imperfect Angel tu k..tapi mcm sweet je title tu ek.. x salah rasa nya di jadi kan title aku ari ni.., walau pun aku x dgr lagi lelagu dia dlm album tuh.. Takdela pulak nak ceritakan pasal " angel2" ni.. huhuhuhuh ..

Bukan semua org di lahirkan dgn kesempurnaan.. malah sebagai manusia kesempurnaan bukanya sesuatu sifat yg kita miliki.. di sana sini pasti ada cacat celanya..sebagai seorg insan yg pastinya berusaha untuk meletakkan diri sesempurna mungkin, aku juga sememangnya tdk terlepas dari dari segala kecacatan.

Dah lewat malam ni.. nak menaip pun mcm very the malas.. tapi "i just cant sleep". i tried but end up infront of the computer checking tht VERY addicting FACEBOOK. cadang nya nak tgk tv.. tapi rancangan tv pun dok mengulang2 benda yg sama.. walau pun aku ni bukan le antu tv sgt tapi kalau dah rancangan yg aku dah tgk dekat 4-5 kali tu di ulang2 sakit la pula hati ni huhuhu. Channel TV bukan main banyak lagi.. di bayar la pulak setiap bulan.. tapi rancanagan nyer itu2 je..telambat bayar cepat ajer "channel is not in your subscribtions" keluar.. bila dah di bayar, nak pulak di telefon.. kalau x mesti nya beberapa hari baru diorg sedar payment dah di buat.. huhuhu.. alah.. bukan nyer aku kisah sgt pun.. cuma bosan sgt ni .. kepala otak tepu, x tau nak buat apa. nak keluar, masalah nyer ada apd pkul 4 pagi ni? dah la teksi kat KL ni nak kene berhati2 selalu.. silap hari bulan 15% midnight charge bleh jadi 50%.. ntah aper2 ntah..

Nak dikatakan stress tak der la pulak.. nak di kata kan lapar.. baru ajer lepas melantak ngan si juki kat mamak tuh seblm aku tido.. nasib baik esok takder job pagi.. tapi x leh la nak bgn lambat pun.. banyak benda nak di buat. Laundry.. namecard baru.. invoice baru.. nak pi beli stock fake lashes yg hanya tinggal beberapa kerat ajer tu... hurm.. mcm busy sgt tuh bunyi nyer.. x la juga kot..

Dlm tgh bosan tu .. aku pi la google kan nama aku(bukan nama dlm IC ek.. nama commecial je) terkejut plak biler result nyer lebih dari 100.. tepikir plak.. apernye yg banyak sgt tuh.. rupa2 nya online2 magazine yg ada credits nama aku ngn blogs org2 yg pernah aku makeup kan.. erm.. ade gak yg tak pernah aku makeupkan pun creditkan nama aku..siap number telefon lagi.. im surprisingly happy about it. kiranya benda tu mcm free advertisement la..YEAY!!! Okla tuh..

Tgh2 busy typing ni.. nak melayankan kebosanan x leh tido tahap2 maximum.. ader plak missed calls yg sesaja wat hal tgh2 malam ni.. takde keje nak buat agaknya.. ambik number kat magazine.. pastu pi wat call2 nak berkenalan ngn artis.. aper diorg ingat aku ni operator ke? ader gak yg mcm dah tak siuman sms2 benda pelik2.. buat2 salah numberla.. buat2 jadi agent nak casting pelakon la.. ader jugak yg berani mati buat2 kenal aku pastu nak minta number phone artis konon nyer HP dia hilang.. giler ke ape? nak dikatakan bodoh.. reti plak mendail number.. reti plak menghantar sms.. reti plak membaca majalah .. nak di kesiankan plak.. lagi la kesian kat aku ni yg enpunya phone tu. Nak ajer aku off kan phone.. tapi takut plak ader emergency case.. Yer la.. aku bukan nyer ddk sebelah rumah ngan family aku.. So aku sabar jer la..

Siang tadi dah la ada insiden2 yg menyakit kan hati aku ni .. nak di jadi kan cerita.. satu pompuan tepon.. nak tanya pasal makeup kata nya.. nak kawin.. tahun depan, bulan mac.. apa2 pun aku tanya la tarikhnya.. nak tgk aku free ker tidak. Bila dah check, tak free la pula.. so aku cakap le kat dia elok2 yg tarikh tu aku tak free.. so i dont want any further discussion ngan dia.. dah mmg aku x available tarikh tu aku harap dia faham le.. tapi tak la pulak dia hung up call tu.. dia tanya plak pasal price makeup.. alih2 bila aku kasi price makeup aku.. dia minta discount.. so aku tergelak la.. aku kata nak discount camana dah mmg aku x available tarikh tu.. kalau aku kasi discount pun bukan nyer aku bleh buat pun..taknak la pulak aku "ya" kan lepastu tak turn up time hari kahwin dia. tetiba je dia tanya lagi apa brand makeup yg aku biasa guna.. aku layan kan lagi.. pastu dia leh cerita kat aku plak yg dia snarnyer dah ada org nak makeupkan dia hari perkhawinan tu guna product2 tu tapi cheaper price.. aku cakap lagi elok2 kat dia.. "its ok u can carry on with that fella.. because i will not be available on that date" akhirnya dia hung up juga... terpinga2 la aku...tang mananye yg dia tak faham tuh?? dah ler aku inform kat dia aku x available on that date, dia tetibe minta discount plak.. bila aku repeat yg aku mmg x available time tu.. dia leh compare plak price aku ngan org yg mmg menyerah diri nak makeupkan dia.. so aku malas nak pikir aku wat x tau je..

Dlm beberapa jam lepas tu hp bunyi lagi(minta2 job masuk.. amin.. hehehe tu dlm hati).. bila aku angkat, pompuan yg sama.. tepikir la aku " sedap sgt ker suara aku kat dlm tepon ni sampai dia call lagi" huhuhu.. kali ni dia tanya plak kalau aku ada wat trial makeup.. aku kata la kat dia.. aku mmg tak buat trial makeup unless kalau dia bayar as much as the actual price yg aku amik untuk bridal makeup(ttp explain ni.. walaupun secara logiknya.. untuk apa dia nak trial makeup dah mmg aku x free date tu.. x paham bahasa ker ape?) biler aku explain camtu dia ada hati plak nak kata " mcm mana i nak tau makeup u time i kawin nanti sesuai untuk i ker tidak kalau x der trial.." Terkedu aku kejap dgr benda tu.. bukan nyer aku terkedu pasal dia mempertikaikan capability aku.. tapi terkedu ngn kebiulan kepala otak dia tu.. Apa lagi aku tanya la dia "u ni org melayu ke?" dia ya kan..pastu aku tanya boleh faham bahasa melayu ke? pastu dia naik antu kat aku.." kenapa plak i tak faham bahasa melayu? abis i cakap bahasa aper ngn u??" .. Berani mati dia jawab mcm tu kat aku.. huhuhuhuh.. tak nak la pulak aku makikan dia tapi aku kata la kat dia.. untuk ape semua soalan2 tu kalau aku mmg tak available time hari perkhawinan dia tu.. buang masa ajer soalan2 tu.. yg memeranjat kan lagi lepas tu.. dia leh terdiam.. pastu dia kata.. "la napa x kata awal2".. trus dia hung up.. Tegamam rasanya.. tak cukup clear ker aper yg aku kata memula tu? 2-3 kali aku ulang kata kat dia yg DATE TU AKU X FREE..tang mana plak yg dia x faham.. Tu blom kawin lagi dah pekak... kesian ek.. kang dah kawin laki dia minta kopi ntah2 dia kasi nyer topi. Stress aku skejap.. huhuhuhu

Adoi.. manusia ni mcm2.. tapi bila dipikir2.. mungkin dia tgh celaru time borak ngn aku kat fon tu..mungkin juga dia x focus.. ape2 je la.. yg penting dah lelama bleh tergelak di buat nye..erm... kalau camtu.. mmg dah tak sempurna, atau buat2 tak sempurna??? *sigh*